laraneorexia

Current Location: home
Current Mood: determined
Current Music: rock

well its been almost a year since ive been on here and ive done nothing but gain weight since.
im huge i weight like 130, everyone clams that muscel weighs more then fat and that its because of all the sports ive taken up inorder to loose weight, but i know there wrong, in june i became a vegiterian and since then ive had to eat alot of other things with protein in them and i think its that stuff thats makeing me gain weight, so ive decided to go on an all fruit and all vegtable diet NOTHING else. even though im already a vegiterian i still eat like pasta and things like that but ive decided not to any more. im going to have to take a pill or somehting to get my protein but i will not be consumeing any of those protein shakes that make you gain all that weight.
my next posting will be thinspo.
xoxo laraneoexia

i know i havent written in a while but yea here i am well this weekend im going to prom and well ive gained 4 lbs, im gonna die  this whole week im going to try and stay 1000 cals i know thats alot but if my rents notice my eating changes they freak out and that means no prom. and i really want to look skinny in this dress i have so like yea, im so screwed unless im more careful its just that i have not selfcontrol and like yesterday i started theese exercizes that i got out of a magizine so im going to start doing them every day its already may and im still a fat fuck  i wanna be 110 lbs right now. im 127 gah i wanna puck myslef but i just dont have an easy gag reflex.blah i just dont knwo what to do with myself i wish i didnt have any taste buds so i didnt crave food and i coulnt taste it and so i wouldnt wanna eat it.

bleh im sooo stupid i was doind sooo well today i had otten exercise and everything 
all i had eaten was a freaking banana and then i came back home from a friends house 
and fucking ate two pieces of cake eww im so fat. and its almost bathing suit season someone kill me.

Current Mood: optimistic

i hate myself 
i have been bingeing and bingeing for the last week or so i just cant stop.
but thenn today i was looking in my new magizine and it had an artical about 
models that are too skinny adn i was just like bull shit those girls are
amazing and theres nothign worng. so i was more motivate so i put on the 
extra small shirt  from hollister that i want to fit me loosely by the time i go 
back to school monday from spring break [i ware a medium loosely right 
now but a small looks ok on me] so i think im instead of fasting im just 
going to limit the calories i intake to the extream that way im not as hungry 
and i wont be so quick to binge !!


i love modivation

Current Mood: annoyed

soo today i started off reall well i mean i was on a roll i went to school with some mango tea so i didnt eat brakefast and im stiil on the same gatorade i sarted at lunch and its now 4:11 but when i can on i was reading some tips and tricks from one of my pro anan web sites that i visit regularly and it said to take vitimens that they were really important but my vitimens are 15 cals a piece and im supposed to take two and then i started to suck on a jolly rancher but i spit it out. also todays my first day of fasting and i was supposed to go out and walk with my friends and stuff but im just so tired so i think im going to saty in my room for the rest of the day and scut skinny people out of mags.

Current Mood: blank

this is my first day using this live journal so im stil kinda new to this my whole journal is about my struggle with anorexia so im here for support not put downs thanks guys