laraneorexia

Sat, 15 Mar 2008 19:05:19 GMT

i ended up eating a bowl of chocolate ice cream and some ramen noodles last night :/
but ill ive eaten to day so far was ramen noodles and a little piece of chocolate
for some reason i cannot stay away from chocolate.
i deff need help with that. :[ any ways im hopeing i can keep myself from eating anything else today so wish me luck.

xoxo laraneoexia.

Fri, 14 Mar 2008 22:21:24 GMT

okay im soooooo proud of my self today!
all ive consumed is a granola bar, water
and some juice! im so glad ive taken up extra activities
they keep me so busy!
but even though ive done so well today
it deff does not make up for yesterday
i binged like HxC. ugh
well its spring break adn im hope i can keep myself under control while i dont
have school to occupy me!
wish me luck
xoxo laraneoexia.

so far

Thu, 28 Feb 2008 20:01:47 GMT

well so far today..
ive had a small dole fruit cup.
a banana
5 strawberries
and half of an apple.
and half of a gatoraid.
i feel fat :/
i need to cut down way more.

long time no talk

Wed, 27 Feb 2008 22:10:13 GMT

well its been almost a year since ive been on here and ive done nothing but gain weight since.
im huge i weight like 130, everyone clams that muscel weighs more then fat and that its because of all the sports ive taken up inorder to loose weight, but i know there wrong, in june i became a vegiterian and since then ive had to eat alot of other things with protein in them and i think its that stuff thats makeing me gain weight, so ive decided to go on an all fruit and all vegtable diet NOTHING else. even though im already a vegiterian i still eat like pasta and things like that but ive decided not to any more. im going to have to take a pill or somehting to get my protein but i will not be consumeing any of those protein shakes that make you gain all that weight.
my next posting will be thinspo.
xoxo laraneoexia

♥

prom

Sun, 06 May 2007 22:13:15 GMT

i know i havent written in a while but yea here i am well this weekend im going to prom and well ive gained 4 lbs, im gonna die this whole week im going to try and stay 1000 cals i know thats alot but if my rents notice my eating changes they freak out and that means no prom. and i really want to look skinny in this dress i have so like yea, im so screwed unless im more careful its just that i have not selfcontrol and like yesterday i started theese exercizes that i got out of a magizine so im going to start doing them every day its already may and im still a fat fuck i wanna be 110 lbs right now. im 127 gah i wanna puck myslef but i just dont have an easy gag reflex.blah i just dont knwo what to do with myself i wish i didnt have any taste buds so i didnt crave food and i coulnt taste it and so i wouldnt wanna eat it.

ahhhhhhhhhhhh.

Sat, 21 Apr 2007 01:57:53 GMT

dude im am soooo stupid i have absolutly no self control, ugh im so stupid i was doing so well today all i had was lunch and then i had to go eat eat some more. i wish i could just control myself but i guess what they say is true"dont wish for it work for it" god and on top of being a stupid fat bitch im relly ocnfused right now theres this guy ive been messig around with and well im not dating him and then theres this other guy who im going to prom with who im also not dating but i know likes me very much and all my friends are yelling at me for messing with the other guy when usually they would be like get it girl and i know why there doing it but i just wish they would leave me the fuck alone.

fat

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 22:52:16 GMT

bleh im sooo stupid i was doind sooo well today i had otten exercise and everything
all i had eaten was a freaking banana and then i came back home from a friends house
and fucking ate two pieces of cake eww im so fat. and its almost bathing suit season someone kill me.

i hate myself

Wed, 04 Apr 2007 20:20:30 GMT

i hate myself
i have been bingeing and bingeing for the last week or so i just cant stop.
but thenn today i was looking in my new magizine and it had an artical about
models that are too skinny adn i was just like bull shit those girls are
amazing and theres nothign worng. so i was more motivate so i put on the
extra small shirt from hollister that i want to fit me loosely by the time i go
back to school monday from spring break [i ware a medium loosely right
now but a small looks ok on me] so i think im instead of fasting im just
going to limit the calories i intake to the extream that way im not as hungry
and i wont be so quick to binge !!

i love modivation

ew

Sat, 31 Mar 2007 20:09:35 GMT

ehhh im just soo freaing fat i cant take it anymore when ever i eat i feel sick because i wanna be skinny but like cant help but eat because my parents will freak out at me. HELP!

i freaking suck

Wed, 28 Mar 2007 19:45:48 GMT

sooo i was just doing soo well yesterdayy and theen i binged i hate myself im so damn stupid i have no self control.

almost

Tue, 27 Mar 2007 20:18:17 GMT

soo today i started off reall well i mean i was on a roll i went to school with some mango tea so i didnt eat brakefast and im stiil on the same gatorade i sarted at lunch and its now 4:11 but when i can on i was reading some tips and tricks from one of my pro anan web sites that i visit regularly and it said to take vitimens that they were really important but my vitimens are 15 cals a piece and im supposed to take two and then i started to suck on a jolly rancher but i spit it out. also todays my first day of fasting and i was supposed to go out and walk with my friends and stuff but im just so tired so i think im going to saty in my room for the rest of the day and scut skinny people out of mags.

today=gay

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 18:58:48 GMT

today was horrible i was suppoesed to start fasting but during lunch its just so hard nto to eat when im having fun and with all my friends and comfortable. but i know im just so damn fat and i need to chill with it and get over it and just stop eating hopefully ill be able to contol my eating during springbreak which is comming up this weekend. wish me luck!

new

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 00:00:11 GMT

this is my first day using this live journal so im stil kinda new to this my whole journal is about my struggle with anorexia so im here for support not put downs thanks guys